Wednesday, June 26, 2013

Here we go again

I took a blogging leave of absence. It was too much. The RE said to take an IVF break to let my body heal, but I also needed a blogging break to let my mind heal. It's been a good break. S and I have reconnected in new and better ways. We've found some hope around this next round of IVF. We celebrated S's grandma's 92nd birthday with lots of laughter and lots of food. And we're heading out for a little vacation in the desert next week. I am so looking forward to that.

Today is CD3 for  me. The IVF #2 protocol (E2 suppression) is about 2 months long. Next step is waiting for an LH surge. Then I'll start with the estrogen patches and ganirelix. My period was wonky this month (4 days late, which is unheard of for me). Not sure what that means. I'm trying to stay positive, but the doubts creep in so easily.

This is our last try for a bio kid. Insurance covers two IVFs and here we are at IVF #2. It doesn't feel super important to me that we have a bio kid (although that does sound nice...and we happen to *love* our new donor pick). It just feels super important that we have kids. And if this door shuts, it means one less option for getting there. But we do have a plan B. And a plan C. So we will keep moving forward. For now, I just need to get to Tar.get to get some ovulation test strips.